I Feel Like Deleting The Adulting Journals

Hey there and welcome back to In The Making, where I should really just STOP doing things.

Since the new year began, I’ve been having the itch to delete The Adulting Journals and start completely fresh. I’ve been considering abandoning The Adulting Journals and replacing it with Punk Pulse Magazine. I’ve been considering how I might recruit writers to even be able to form a steady flow of content for a web magazine. I’ve been considering what I would do differently with a completely new site.

I’ve been trying to curb this desire by making slight changes to the design of The Adulting Journals, but this still hasn’t quenched my desire to start new.

The Adulting Journals is easy. I can post on my own terms with my own schedule. I can post whatever I want. After all, it is a lifestyle blog. A blog on MY lifestyle. Maybe that’s what scares me. Maybe I’m finding it hard to be truly vulnerable as I typically am.

I’m a fairly open book; I’ve nothing to hide. I’m not ashamed of any aspect of my life, and I believe that sharing my own experiences that people don’t typically choose to talk about is valuable to the few people who may be able to relate to me. I take pride in being a source of comfort and understanding for my readers.

But some tiny part of me feels done with The Adulting Journals. Maybe it’s just the name that’s bothering me. Maybe it’s the content. Maybe it’s the site design. Maybe I’ve just grown out of the Adulting Journals concept. I have no idea. I know that regardless, I’m not done with blogging. This site has brought me so much.

I’m still debating completely restarting The Adulting Journals, or rebranding, or WHATEVER my heart truly desires that I do. I’m just not sure what the move is, considering I won’t have much time to write when paramedic school comes up. So, either I make changes NOW or I stay the same.

I don’t know what I want out of this site anymore. I feel like so much has changed lately and the rest of my life isn’t keeping up. Maybe I’m the one who is not keeping up.

I don’t know where this desire for something new has come up. The more I think about it, the more I feel that maybe I’ve accomplished what I wanted to accomplish with The Adulting Journals.

I began The Adulting Journals at a time of immense pain upon being sexually assaulted. I began this blog because I felt alone and trapped. Now, I’ve formed a community. I’ve bonded with so many young bloggers. I’ve seen those around me from a new perspective through my own vulnerability. I’ve learned so much about myself and others and the world around me.

With this, I think I’ve done all the healing I intended on doing through my writing. This site has changed me in ways I never thought it would. What began as a way to cope and vent became a hobby, an outlet, and a home.

I want to do more now. I want to recreate Punk Pulse Magazine into what I had initially intended it to be. I want to create a space that allows women to feel seen and heard. I want to spread awareness and advocate for the things I believe in.

I have a few ideas, but I don’t know how exactly I’m going to accomplish this mission. All I know is that The Adulting Journals is a chapter in my life that’s closing.

It’s bittersweet, but I’m also excited for the opportunity to bring something new to this world. Something that could potentially bring about at least the smallest change.

I’ll continue to update developments relating to the future of The Adulting Journals and the beginnings of this new blog. Thank you for sticking with me through this journey. I’m immensely grateful to have been followed by so many wonderful people and I hope to see you all in this next chapter of my blogging journey.

Love always,

Alexandra