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Hey there, and welcome back to Growing Pains. I was reading through my previous post, Bulimia: My Eating Disorder Story , and I decided to return to the Google doc which inspired me to write that post. It was several pages I had written during one of my many relapses, documenting my eating disorder experience in as much detail as I could muster. All the pain, all the suffering. Everything that hurt.  I hate to admit it, but again, the pillar of my writing is honesty, and I ju

Hey there and welcome back to The Adulting Journals with my newest post in Growing Pains. First and foremost, I just want to say that I appreciate all of you staying with me through my tough time. I should be going back to posting twice a month, with no real schedule for Spoken Word or Alexandra Reads posts just yet. Through the brief hiatus that I took to tend to my health through an eating disorder relapse, I decided to do something I haven’t done since my last recovery.  I

I don’t know why these stupid thoughts have such a hold on me. I just know that I can’t stand existing without my eating disorder. I just can’t.  I know that fact makes me a hypocrite, and I know that all the goodness I’ve been spewing here now amounts to some serious bullshit in the eyes of my readers. I don’t know if this is just the voice of mania telling me that I can lose 20lbs in a few weeks, or if this is a true relapse. If you’ve noticed my absence, it’s been because

I'm not even drafting this on a doc, I'm just writing straight on my site and pressing publish... I FAILED MY OWN CHALLENGE!!!! 10 Days...

Hey there and welcome once again to Growing Pains. First, I want to note that this post will contain mentions of self-harm and suicidal...

Hey there and welcome back to Growing Pains! In looking through my older posts and garnering inspiration for my last story,   Halfway...

Hey there and welcome back to Growing Pains! So, I won’t beat around the bush: I’ve genuinely considered quitting figure skating...

Hey there and welcome to Growing Pains. So, I’ve been thinking about this post a lot and putting it off because I’m just not quite sure...

Hey there and welcome back to Growing Pains, where I get into the struggles of young adulthood. The reason why I’m on Growing Pains...

Hey there, and  finally , welcome back to Growing Pains! I’m very happy to finally be putting out new content on my different blog...

Hey there, and welcome to Life, Unfiltered.  Today’s post is going to be a little different. I normally try to write lighthearted...

Hey there, and welcome to my first post of a personal favorite category, Growing Pains, where I tell you all about the struggles I've come across in my Adulting journey and how I got through them! So, you either know or you don't, right? Or you think you know, but then you realize you actually don't. Choosing a career path was TERRIFYING for me. Everything seemed so set in stone and official, all my friends seemed to know exactly who and what they wanted to be. For me, choosi